It might surprise you to read my title entry but that’s how I feel about the current festive season. People close to me who read this might be wondering why since I’ve been more excited about collecting the alms on behalf of my daughter and doing the calculations on an almost daily basis, just like 10 years ago.
For someone who has been experiencing the yo-yo effect when it comes to losing / regaining weight, you can understand the situation I am in. I kinda accept the fact that as I age, losing weight is getting difficult by the day. Every kilo lost during the recent fasting month was met with a triumphant smile. 5 kilos lost can be considered an achievement, even if the initial target was 10 kilos.
But with all the sinful festive food being served, it’s damn difficult to turn down the hosts whose houses I visit. I’m always caught in a quandary, whether to eat or give a white lie and say I’m too full. I had actually planned to fast on the days we were supposed to visit about 5-10 houses but the wife talked me out of it, out of respect for our hosts. As a result, I have regained a good 3 kilos back within the first 4 days of Raya, which was rather shocking to say the least. Discipline is certainly not one of my fortes but at least I am currently back on track where fitness is concerned. You can understand why I hate Raya now…
The other day I was listening to Radio ERA (104.5FM) on my way home from work. They always have this 1-minute capsule right after they announce the prayer times for all the Malaysian states and Singapore, whereby renowned motivational speaker, Dr. Haji Mohd. Fadhilah Kamsah would be giving a short reminder on etiquettes or something along religious lines. I always enjoy listening to these 1-minute capsules as they are easy to digest and stresses on how to be better Muslims and human beings.
This particular topic pricked my ears and I thought it would be good to share with you, my dear readers. Dr. Fadhilah brought up a topic on forgiving and forgiving sincerely, without any hint of “never forget”. In it, he said that those who do not practice this form of sincere forgiving are bound to have illnesses, be it minor or major as the events that make him / her to never forget, to eat up inside. It hit me like a bolt cos in the past, I was guilty of this “forgive but not forget” trait. And I was almost ill every other week, especially when it comes to my sinus and influenza, that I was tagged a “sick bird” by certain quarters.
It was only till I got married that I learnt to calm down and be a more forgiving person and as a result, the flu attacks have gotten lesser. I dunno if it’s a coincidence but upon reflection, it made quite a lot of sense really. Thinking of affairs that might hurt you again will eventually eat up inside. And a sense of hatred will still linger. I know, cos I’ve been through that and it hurt deeply. Not only that, I suffered quite a lot. I’m sure you guys know what a sucky feeling it is to be down with influenza.
Life’s too short to let any hatred linger nor problems still stuck somewhere in our cranium. I’m still learning to let go of certain problems / issues / grievances I have in me and I hope HE would guide me in banishing them away and make me a better person. And I hope you my dear readers would adopt the same approach as well. I know, it’s never easy to let go of something that can be so hurtful, but I guess we’ll be exalted in HIS eyes if we were to adopt this method, with Jannah beckoning us from a distance… 🙂